Day 3: Your first love
I'm going to be incredibly cliche in this post...consider yourselves warned.
I've been thinking about this question and how I was going to answer it since I started this challenge. I came up with three different answers, and for the sake of being true to what I want this blog to be, I'm going to be honest and give them all. (Come on, you weren't expecting a simple short answer to this, were you?)
I've had what I consider three 1st loves. Each one is different, which is why I can't just give one answer to this. My first love, in the traditional sense, was Andrew's dad. We started dating in 9th grade. He was my first "real" boyfriend. I fell quickly, and fell hard. Looking back, I was so young, and really didn't know what love was (told you there would be cliches...), but whatever my definition of it was back that, I was in it. I'll leave it at that, in fear of digressing to the point of no return. And I don't mean that in a 'I don't want to talk about it' sense, I just know I'll ramble on...like I'm starting to do now.
My second 1st love, and the point in my life where I feel I discovered it's true meaning (I think we'll count that as cliche number 2), was my son, Andrew. You don't realize just how true the phrase "you won't know true love until you have children" is until...well, you have children. The process in which Andrew came into my life was anything but orthodox (I don't mean that technically...we all know how he got here...). At that time my life was so confusing and down-right depressing, and to be perfectly honest, I thought having Andrew would make it worse. Wow, that was terribly hard for me to type, but its how I felt at the time. I didn't understand, and I was scared out of my wits. But the moment he was born and I looked at him for the first time, I had this totally overwhelming emotion and immediately knew everything had changed. I can't describe it as anything but true, unconditional love. While the circumstances in which he came about were not ideal, I believe everything happens for a reason (number 3), and there isn't one thing that I would change, for better or worse. It has shaped me into who I am.
My third first love (this is sounding silly to me now), is Matt. He was not my first boyfriend. He was not my second boyfriend. He was not the first guy I said "I love you" to. In fact, I felt so broken and damaged when we first met that I didn't think loving someone was even an option for me at that point. As much as I tried fighting it, the walls, the fence, the barriers, and the rest of the fort I had built around my heart, were totally destroyed by him (number 4, coming in strong!). For the first time, I gave not only my entire heart, but my entire being to someone, and got it back in return. We were so meant to be its not even funny (I'm losing count, keep track in your heads now). Its been almost 9 years since we started dating. We've been through A LOT, but stood strong TOGETHER through it all. He has given me a 2nd gorgeous son, a home, and a life I can be proud of. There isn't anything that we can't withstand.
Well, there is Day 3. As always, I hope you enjoyed reading it as much as I enjoyed sharing it. One side note before I go...the earthquake and tsunami that hit Japan earlier today has been and will continue to be incredibly devastating. If you pray, please say one for them. If you don't, send your thoughts. Either way, be thankful for everything and everyone in your lives that you love. In the blink of an eye it can all be taken away. Take nothing for granted.
So much love to you all,
Beck
Friday, March 11, 2011
Thursday, March 10, 2011
Day 2 of the 30-day blog challege...
Day 2: Meaning behind your blog name
The name of my blog is 3 Men and a Lady (instead of the movie 3 Men and a Baby). Its pretty self-explanatory, but I named it that because there are 3 boys and 1 lady in the house! Its one of the first things that came to me, so, I went with it. The blog is all about us, so the title had to reflect that.
That one was easy...not much else going on today. Matt is taking his HM2 (or Petty Officer 2nd Class...or E5) test today, so hopefully he does well and is able to pick up in rank! He deserves it!
I might actually break down and make myself a doctor's appointment. I can't swallow without grimacing and this coughing is killing me. Although my mom kindly reminded me that Rita's is now open...that would feel better on my throat than anything the doctor could give me!
That's all for now. Have a great day, and come back tomorrow for Day 3!
Love you all,
Beck
The name of my blog is 3 Men and a Lady (instead of the movie 3 Men and a Baby). Its pretty self-explanatory, but I named it that because there are 3 boys and 1 lady in the house! Its one of the first things that came to me, so, I went with it. The blog is all about us, so the title had to reflect that.
That one was easy...not much else going on today. Matt is taking his HM2 (or Petty Officer 2nd Class...or E5) test today, so hopefully he does well and is able to pick up in rank! He deserves it!
I might actually break down and make myself a doctor's appointment. I can't swallow without grimacing and this coughing is killing me. Although my mom kindly reminded me that Rita's is now open...that would feel better on my throat than anything the doctor could give me!
That's all for now. Have a great day, and come back tomorrow for Day 3!
Love you all,
Beck
Wednesday, March 9, 2011
Day 1 of 30-Day Blog Challenge...
Day 1: Introduce, recent picture of yourself, 15 interesting facts
Introduction-
Ok, even though most of you already know who I am...
My name is Becky. I am a 27 year old stay-at-home Mama and very proud Navy wife. I have 2 boys, Andrew, who is 12, and Braxton, who is 10 months old. My wonderful husband is Matt, who is a Corpsman in the United States Navy. We are currently station at Camp Lejeune, NC. I love my family more than anything!
My most recent picture is at the top of this page (our family picture). I do most of the picture taking so I'm usually not in any of them. I could take one now I suppose...but its still morning and I haven't gotten ready for the day, so consider it a favor that I'm not going to ;-)
15 interesting facts...this one is going to take some thought, because I'm not sure I'm all that interesting lol.
1. Well, I don't think I'm interesting! I guess that's an interesting fact. I think I'm pretty boring. While a lot of 27 year old's I know are going out on Friday and Saturday nights, I would much rather stay home with my family and watch a movie or something.
2. I feel like I was born in the wrong decade. I love the 40's era...everything from the music to the style. Some of my favorite music comes from the 60's and 70's.
3. Speaking of music, I love it. All of it. I could easily go all day long without a TV, but I have to have some sort of music at some point in the day.
4. I love to sing. For those who have had the distinct privilege of seeing me after a drink or two, chances are you know this already. Honestly though, I do love to sing. I often wonder what it would be like to do it for a living. Only problem is, you have to be good in order to do this. Ah well.
5. My dream job has always been to be a Marine Biologist and train whales and dolphins. I have wanted to do this ever since I saw Free Willy way back when. Its something I would LOVE to pursue, but I feel like perhaps that ship has sailed.
6. I have known Matt since 3rd grade. In 5th grade, he pinched my butt and blamed it on some other kid. I beat the other kid up. Matt hasn't changed.
7. I have lived in 6 different states: Virginia, Maryland, New York, Pennsylvania, Florida, and North Carolina. I'm sure more will be added to this list in the future depending on where the Navy sends us!
8. I want to learn a 2nd language. I know a little Spanish, but I want to learn to speak something off the wall. Like Nepali. Well, maybe not that. But something uncommon.
9. I am a gigantic Baltimore Ravens fan (this should not be news to most of you). I also like the Washington Capitals and Baltimore Orioles (we do still have a baseball team, yes??? Haha...), but the Ravens are my favorite. One of the most depressing days for me is the last day of our season. And yes, I say "our" like I'm part of the team :-P
10. I love to cook, and I love to find new and different recipes to try. I used to be a very picky eater, but now I will try just about anything at least once before I write it off. If I could just get Andrew to do the same...
11. Up until the day I was born my parents thought I was a boy...mainly because, well, that's what they were told! Just goes to show you ultrasounds aren't 100% accurate, since last time I checked I was not a boy. All of the shower gifts given to my parents were blue and boy things. The only person who didn't care what the doctor said and still bought something for a girl was my wonderful Nana. She was a smart lady :)
12. I'm named after my Great-Great Aunt, and my middle name is after my Great-Grandfather. Yes, my middle name is after a man, even though most people pronounce it as a woman's name. His name was Carl, which they passed down to my Grandma, but added a "y" to the spelling to make it look more feminine (Caryl). She then gave it to my mom for a middle name, who then gave it to me. I hope I can pass it down as well.
13. This is one is a little creepy, but interesting I think. I watched my Grandpa die. This will sound crazy, but it was one of the most comforting things I've ever experienced. I had the most unfortunate experience of discovering that my Pop Pop had died by walking into a room and finding him that way. As soon as we (my Dad and I) walked in the room I knew. That image haunted me for years and was really hard for me to deal with. Seven years later, when I got the call that my Grandpa was dying and that I needed to get to the hospital, I was terrified, as the images and emotions I felt with the experience with my Pop Pop came back full force. I knew I was going to see him die. I was so scared to walk into that room. In my mind, I knew what death looked like, and it was something I did not want to see again. When I walked him, he did not look like my Pop Pop did. Granted, he was still alive, but it was not the image I had expected. His body was alive, but I already knew his soul was gone. Most of the family was there when I arrived, and once we were all there my Grandma let us know what his wishes were, and that even though she was asking our thoughts on it, she would ultimately fulfill his wishes by turning off the machines. We all said our goodbyes to him. After standing around him and saying a prayer, we waited as the nurse turned off the machines. I can't tell you how long it took for him to pass, as my mind was numb and was focused on him, my Grandma, and comforting my mom. My Grandma kept telling him it was ok for him to go, and that she loved him. Everything was incredibly surreal at that point. We continued to stand there together until he took his final breath. As sad as it was, it was also very peaceful. To watch someone, especially someone you love depart from this world and into the next surrounded by all who he loved and loved him in such a calm and peaceful way...its really something I will never forget. And for the first time in 7 years, I was no longer tormented by the images of my Pop Pop. I miss them both so much.
14. I can be very long-winded. Refer to #13 for proof of this.
15. I love being a mother. Its not a glamorous job, and the money is crap. But it is the most satisfying and rewarding thing I have ever done!
Ok, so I don't know how interesting any of that is, but regardless, I hope you enjoyed Day 1! Come back tomorrow for Day 2!!!
Ma timilai maya garchhu ("I love you" in Nepali...),
Beck
Introduction-
Ok, even though most of you already know who I am...
My name is Becky. I am a 27 year old stay-at-home Mama and very proud Navy wife. I have 2 boys, Andrew, who is 12, and Braxton, who is 10 months old. My wonderful husband is Matt, who is a Corpsman in the United States Navy. We are currently station at Camp Lejeune, NC. I love my family more than anything!
My most recent picture is at the top of this page (our family picture). I do most of the picture taking so I'm usually not in any of them. I could take one now I suppose...but its still morning and I haven't gotten ready for the day, so consider it a favor that I'm not going to ;-)
15 interesting facts...this one is going to take some thought, because I'm not sure I'm all that interesting lol.
1. Well, I don't think I'm interesting! I guess that's an interesting fact. I think I'm pretty boring. While a lot of 27 year old's I know are going out on Friday and Saturday nights, I would much rather stay home with my family and watch a movie or something.
2. I feel like I was born in the wrong decade. I love the 40's era...everything from the music to the style. Some of my favorite music comes from the 60's and 70's.
3. Speaking of music, I love it. All of it. I could easily go all day long without a TV, but I have to have some sort of music at some point in the day.
4. I love to sing. For those who have had the distinct privilege of seeing me after a drink or two, chances are you know this already. Honestly though, I do love to sing. I often wonder what it would be like to do it for a living. Only problem is, you have to be good in order to do this. Ah well.
5. My dream job has always been to be a Marine Biologist and train whales and dolphins. I have wanted to do this ever since I saw Free Willy way back when. Its something I would LOVE to pursue, but I feel like perhaps that ship has sailed.
6. I have known Matt since 3rd grade. In 5th grade, he pinched my butt and blamed it on some other kid. I beat the other kid up. Matt hasn't changed.
7. I have lived in 6 different states: Virginia, Maryland, New York, Pennsylvania, Florida, and North Carolina. I'm sure more will be added to this list in the future depending on where the Navy sends us!
8. I want to learn a 2nd language. I know a little Spanish, but I want to learn to speak something off the wall. Like Nepali. Well, maybe not that. But something uncommon.
9. I am a gigantic Baltimore Ravens fan (this should not be news to most of you). I also like the Washington Capitals and Baltimore Orioles (we do still have a baseball team, yes??? Haha...), but the Ravens are my favorite. One of the most depressing days for me is the last day of our season. And yes, I say "our" like I'm part of the team :-P
10. I love to cook, and I love to find new and different recipes to try. I used to be a very picky eater, but now I will try just about anything at least once before I write it off. If I could just get Andrew to do the same...
11. Up until the day I was born my parents thought I was a boy...mainly because, well, that's what they were told! Just goes to show you ultrasounds aren't 100% accurate, since last time I checked I was not a boy. All of the shower gifts given to my parents were blue and boy things. The only person who didn't care what the doctor said and still bought something for a girl was my wonderful Nana. She was a smart lady :)
12. I'm named after my Great-Great Aunt, and my middle name is after my Great-Grandfather. Yes, my middle name is after a man, even though most people pronounce it as a woman's name. His name was Carl, which they passed down to my Grandma, but added a "y" to the spelling to make it look more feminine (Caryl). She then gave it to my mom for a middle name, who then gave it to me. I hope I can pass it down as well.
13. This is one is a little creepy, but interesting I think. I watched my Grandpa die. This will sound crazy, but it was one of the most comforting things I've ever experienced. I had the most unfortunate experience of discovering that my Pop Pop had died by walking into a room and finding him that way. As soon as we (my Dad and I) walked in the room I knew. That image haunted me for years and was really hard for me to deal with. Seven years later, when I got the call that my Grandpa was dying and that I needed to get to the hospital, I was terrified, as the images and emotions I felt with the experience with my Pop Pop came back full force. I knew I was going to see him die. I was so scared to walk into that room. In my mind, I knew what death looked like, and it was something I did not want to see again. When I walked him, he did not look like my Pop Pop did. Granted, he was still alive, but it was not the image I had expected. His body was alive, but I already knew his soul was gone. Most of the family was there when I arrived, and once we were all there my Grandma let us know what his wishes were, and that even though she was asking our thoughts on it, she would ultimately fulfill his wishes by turning off the machines. We all said our goodbyes to him. After standing around him and saying a prayer, we waited as the nurse turned off the machines. I can't tell you how long it took for him to pass, as my mind was numb and was focused on him, my Grandma, and comforting my mom. My Grandma kept telling him it was ok for him to go, and that she loved him. Everything was incredibly surreal at that point. We continued to stand there together until he took his final breath. As sad as it was, it was also very peaceful. To watch someone, especially someone you love depart from this world and into the next surrounded by all who he loved and loved him in such a calm and peaceful way...its really something I will never forget. And for the first time in 7 years, I was no longer tormented by the images of my Pop Pop. I miss them both so much.
14. I can be very long-winded. Refer to #13 for proof of this.
15. I love being a mother. Its not a glamorous job, and the money is crap. But it is the most satisfying and rewarding thing I have ever done!
Ok, so I don't know how interesting any of that is, but regardless, I hope you enjoyed Day 1! Come back tomorrow for Day 2!!!
Ma timilai maya garchhu ("I love you" in Nepali...),
Beck
Tuesday, March 8, 2011
30 Day Blog Challege
I came across this challenge through another blog by a friend of mine (in fact, she's the one who inspired me to start blogging in the first place and gave me a lot of help...thanks, Becca!) and I thought it was a great way to blog more and to change it up a bit.
Here is an explanation:
Day 0: The 30 Day Challenge Explanation and Description
Day 1: Introduce, recent picture of yourself, 15 interesting facts
Day 2: Meaning behind your blog name
Day 3: Your first love----
Day 4: Your parents
Day 5: A song to match your mood
Day 6: A picture of something that makes you happy
Day 7: Favorite Movies
Day 8: A place you've traveled to
Day 9: A favorite picture of your best friend
Day 10: Something you're afraid of
Day 11: Favorite tv shows
Day 12: Something you don't leave the house without
Day 13: Goals
Day 14: A picture of you last year - how have you changed?
Day 15: Bible verse
Day 16: Dream house
Day 17: Something you're looking forward to
Day 18: Favorite Place to Eat
Day 19: Something you miss
Day 20: Nicknames
Day 21: Favorite Picture of yourself ALL TIME Why?
Day 22: What's in your purse?
Day 23: Something You Crave
Day 24: Something you've learned
Day 25: Put your iPod on shuffle, first 10 songs
Day 26: Your Dream Wedding
Day 27: Original Photo of the city you live in
Day 28: Something that stresses you out
Day 29: 3 Wishes
Day 30: a picture of yourself this day and 5 good things that happened since you started the challenge
I guess this is considered Day 0...and you have your explanation and description...that was easy! :)
While I'm here, might as well throw in an update...
Braxton is not feeling well, yet again. The past 2 weeks have been rough for him. It started out with an ear and eye infection, which we THOUGHT had cleared up. Then last week he was running a fever of 102 for 24 hours and was totally miserable. Now today he woke up coughing with a runny nose and lots of congestion (which he's decided to share with his Mama...thanks buddy!). He has a follow-up appointment this week anyway, so hopefully we can get him feeling better soon! Sick babies make me sad :(
Matt's brother, Heath, came down this past Friday for the weekend to help Matt work on his car. I won't try to explain what exactly they did, because well...I have no idea what they did. All I know is they worked hard all day Saturday and the car should be running better now...which is good! Plus we all got to spend time with "Uncle Bubsy", and that's always a plus! Hopefully Tiff and Ella can join him next time!
I found myself missing Pensacola yesterday. Weird, I know. I think its the friends and memories we made that I was actually missing, but regardless, I missed it. I was looking through a cookbook my mom bought for me while she and my Grandma came down to visit. She picked it up at Lulu's, which is Jimmy Buffett's sister's restaurant, while we were there for dinner. The recipes, stories, and photos she shares in the book just brought back a wave of memories and good times we shared with some great people while we lived there. We've been fortunate enough to keep in contact with many of them, and I hope to do so for many years to come! We're all spread out now, from California all the way to Italy...only a few remain in Pensacola still. But, such is the military life, and is something we are going to experience more than a few times.
Today was my 2nd weigh in since my "new beginning", or whatever I'm calling it today. To my surprise, I lost 5 lbs, which puts my total at 9 lbs down! I certainly thought I would see a loss, but I was thinking 2, MAYBE 3 lbs. Definitely not 5. Not that I'm complaining...at all! I just know my body will eventually slow things down, so I don't want to get into a routine of thinking 5 lbs a week is normal. I'm pretty proud of myself. I'm eating a lot healthier than I ever have, and I feel wonderful. Last night I told Matt I feel like a WW spokesperson. I am CONSTANTLY talking about how great it is and will tell anyone who will listen! Maybe I should ask for a paycheck..
Hope everyone has a great day, and don't forget to check back daily for the 30-day challenge!!!
Love love love,
Beck
Here is an explanation:
Day 0: The 30 Day Challenge Explanation and Description
Day 1: Introduce, recent picture of yourself, 15 interesting facts
Day 2: Meaning behind your blog name
Day 3: Your first love----
Day 4: Your parents
Day 5: A song to match your mood
Day 6: A picture of something that makes you happy
Day 7: Favorite Movies
Day 8: A place you've traveled to
Day 9: A favorite picture of your best friend
Day 10: Something you're afraid of
Day 11: Favorite tv shows
Day 12: Something you don't leave the house without
Day 13: Goals
Day 14: A picture of you last year - how have you changed?
Day 15: Bible verse
Day 16: Dream house
Day 17: Something you're looking forward to
Day 18: Favorite Place to Eat
Day 19: Something you miss
Day 20: Nicknames
Day 21: Favorite Picture of yourself ALL TIME Why?
Day 22: What's in your purse?
Day 23: Something You Crave
Day 24: Something you've learned
Day 25: Put your iPod on shuffle, first 10 songs
Day 26: Your Dream Wedding
Day 27: Original Photo of the city you live in
Day 28: Something that stresses you out
Day 29: 3 Wishes
Day 30: a picture of yourself this day and 5 good things that happened since you started the challenge
I guess this is considered Day 0...and you have your explanation and description...that was easy! :)
While I'm here, might as well throw in an update...
Braxton is not feeling well, yet again. The past 2 weeks have been rough for him. It started out with an ear and eye infection, which we THOUGHT had cleared up. Then last week he was running a fever of 102 for 24 hours and was totally miserable. Now today he woke up coughing with a runny nose and lots of congestion (which he's decided to share with his Mama...thanks buddy!). He has a follow-up appointment this week anyway, so hopefully we can get him feeling better soon! Sick babies make me sad :(
Matt's brother, Heath, came down this past Friday for the weekend to help Matt work on his car. I won't try to explain what exactly they did, because well...I have no idea what they did. All I know is they worked hard all day Saturday and the car should be running better now...which is good! Plus we all got to spend time with "Uncle Bubsy", and that's always a plus! Hopefully Tiff and Ella can join him next time!
I found myself missing Pensacola yesterday. Weird, I know. I think its the friends and memories we made that I was actually missing, but regardless, I missed it. I was looking through a cookbook my mom bought for me while she and my Grandma came down to visit. She picked it up at Lulu's, which is Jimmy Buffett's sister's restaurant, while we were there for dinner. The recipes, stories, and photos she shares in the book just brought back a wave of memories and good times we shared with some great people while we lived there. We've been fortunate enough to keep in contact with many of them, and I hope to do so for many years to come! We're all spread out now, from California all the way to Italy...only a few remain in Pensacola still. But, such is the military life, and is something we are going to experience more than a few times.
Today was my 2nd weigh in since my "new beginning", or whatever I'm calling it today. To my surprise, I lost 5 lbs, which puts my total at 9 lbs down! I certainly thought I would see a loss, but I was thinking 2, MAYBE 3 lbs. Definitely not 5. Not that I'm complaining...at all! I just know my body will eventually slow things down, so I don't want to get into a routine of thinking 5 lbs a week is normal. I'm pretty proud of myself. I'm eating a lot healthier than I ever have, and I feel wonderful. Last night I told Matt I feel like a WW spokesperson. I am CONSTANTLY talking about how great it is and will tell anyone who will listen! Maybe I should ask for a paycheck..
Hope everyone has a great day, and don't forget to check back daily for the 30-day challenge!!!
Love love love,
Beck
Monday, February 28, 2011
Getting it in while I can
Its not that often I have time on my hands to do nothing, so I'm taking full advantage of that to go ahead and write another blog entry. Braxton is asleep, Matt has duty until tomorrow, and Andrew is outside playing. I'm exhausted, and would love to take a nap, but I know as soon as I lay my head down Braxton will be awake, sooooo...
I signed Andrew up for the base golf team today. He's really excited to begin practice. Unfortunately that won't begin until the end of March, but he's already started practicing. In fact, I'm hearing the shots ricocheting off the house as we speak...>:-/ I also swung by the exchange to pick up a couple short sleeved shirts for Braxton. It almost hit 80 today (woohoo!) and I realized all of his shirts are long sleeved, so now he has a couple things for this nice weather! He's always so good for us when we go out, and today was no exception. He even flirted up a storm with the cashier and a cute set of twins...like father like son! :)
I happened to notice when I got home, after running around all morning, that the center stone fell out of my wedding band. I'm pretty sure its covered under our renter's insurance, but I'm still really upset about it. I don't want to put either of my rings back on until I can have them checked to make sure none of the other diamonds are loose, so my hand is going to feel very naked for a bit.
I'm thinking about going back to work. I really don't want to. Not because of the working part. I don't want to leave Braxton. I give so much credit to the moms who go back to work. I mean, I went back to school and work after I had Andrew, but at least I could leave him with my mom. Even then, its hard to leave them. But we really need the extra income, so I'm looking for something I can do evenings and weekends when Matt is home so we won't have to worry about leaving him with someone we don't know or having to pay for daycare. I'm actually thinking about either offering in-home daycare (after getting the proper certifications, of course) or starting a residential cleaning service. Neither are my dream job, but its money, and would hopefully solve the issue of not wanting to leave Braxton. I'm looking into all of the requirements, so I will keep you updated. I'll work nights if it means I don't have to leave Braxton with a stranger.
There is something that terrifies me about leaving Braxton with someone so I can go to work. At least with someone I don't know. I don't think its irrational, and I believe is something every parent can relate to. But I am genuinely terrified. There are so many bad people in the world today. I know there are still plenty of good, but its so hard to decipher between the two anymore! And even if you do find a good one, accidents happen. Anything can happen. Not that it couldn't happen when he's with us, but I at least then I am in control, or so it feels anyway.
I came across a blog the other day through a post on Facebook. It's author is a woman my age, and she and her husband became parents for the first time just this past October. She is a teacher, and went back to work after her maternity leave was up. Just last week, she received a phone call that her 4 month old baby girl had stopped breathing and was being taken to the hospital. Unfortunately, they could not save her. They aren't sure what happened, but they are leaning toward SIDS. All they know is the sitter put her down for a nap, and when she went to check on her she was blue and wasn't breathing. She has been blogging about it ever since, I believe as a way to cope. Reading her thoughts about what her and her family are going through just crushes my heart. I tried telling Matt about it and just cried. I can't even begin to imagine losing my babies. Her blog is incredibly touching, and I read it daily. Matt asks me why I do that to myself. As far as I see it, this is her therapy. This poor woman is putting all of her thoughts, sorrows, and feelings down for people to see as a way to deal with this...I feel as a mom I at least owe it to her to read them. While it is heartbreaking to read, it is also touching, and is something that has stuck with me since I came across it...which is why I'm sharing it with all of you. You can choose to read it, or not. But I wanted to at least give you the option.
Kellie and James Staats' blog
It never ceases to amaze me how people can pull together in times of tragedy. Some of you may have noticed that I've posted a link to an online auction today. The auction was put together by a woman who owns an online boutique and came across the blog the same way I did. She was so touched, that she has been working incredibly hard since then to bring in donations to put up for this auction. She has hundreds of items up for bid. All of the proceeds will go to the Staats family to help offset the cost of the funeral and anything else they might need. A bunch of total strangers, who have never met the family, have come together to help. It brings tears to my eyes to think that not all hope in the world in lost. I ask you all...PLEASE check it out. If you can't make a purchase, at least spread the word. While nothing can bring their daughter back, having some of the financial burden lifted from their shoulders will be helpful. At the very least, please keep this family in your prayers!!!!
Tiny Wings auction for Maddie #1
Tiny Wings auction for Maddie #2
I feel like this entry might be a bit scattered...but thats ok. I am definitely scatter-brained at times! I think this is where I'll leave off tonight. Braxton is up from his nap anyway, and I need to start dinner. Its chicken, baked potato, and broccoli tonight. I am really enjoying eating healthier. Tomorrow is my first weigh in, so hopefully I will have good news to report!!! As always, thanks for reading!
Love to all,
Beck
I signed Andrew up for the base golf team today. He's really excited to begin practice. Unfortunately that won't begin until the end of March, but he's already started practicing. In fact, I'm hearing the shots ricocheting off the house as we speak...>:-/ I also swung by the exchange to pick up a couple short sleeved shirts for Braxton. It almost hit 80 today (woohoo!) and I realized all of his shirts are long sleeved, so now he has a couple things for this nice weather! He's always so good for us when we go out, and today was no exception. He even flirted up a storm with the cashier and a cute set of twins...like father like son! :)
I happened to notice when I got home, after running around all morning, that the center stone fell out of my wedding band. I'm pretty sure its covered under our renter's insurance, but I'm still really upset about it. I don't want to put either of my rings back on until I can have them checked to make sure none of the other diamonds are loose, so my hand is going to feel very naked for a bit.
I'm thinking about going back to work. I really don't want to. Not because of the working part. I don't want to leave Braxton. I give so much credit to the moms who go back to work. I mean, I went back to school and work after I had Andrew, but at least I could leave him with my mom. Even then, its hard to leave them. But we really need the extra income, so I'm looking for something I can do evenings and weekends when Matt is home so we won't have to worry about leaving him with someone we don't know or having to pay for daycare. I'm actually thinking about either offering in-home daycare (after getting the proper certifications, of course) or starting a residential cleaning service. Neither are my dream job, but its money, and would hopefully solve the issue of not wanting to leave Braxton. I'm looking into all of the requirements, so I will keep you updated. I'll work nights if it means I don't have to leave Braxton with a stranger.
There is something that terrifies me about leaving Braxton with someone so I can go to work. At least with someone I don't know. I don't think its irrational, and I believe is something every parent can relate to. But I am genuinely terrified. There are so many bad people in the world today. I know there are still plenty of good, but its so hard to decipher between the two anymore! And even if you do find a good one, accidents happen. Anything can happen. Not that it couldn't happen when he's with us, but I at least then I am in control, or so it feels anyway.
I came across a blog the other day through a post on Facebook. It's author is a woman my age, and she and her husband became parents for the first time just this past October. She is a teacher, and went back to work after her maternity leave was up. Just last week, she received a phone call that her 4 month old baby girl had stopped breathing and was being taken to the hospital. Unfortunately, they could not save her. They aren't sure what happened, but they are leaning toward SIDS. All they know is the sitter put her down for a nap, and when she went to check on her she was blue and wasn't breathing. She has been blogging about it ever since, I believe as a way to cope. Reading her thoughts about what her and her family are going through just crushes my heart. I tried telling Matt about it and just cried. I can't even begin to imagine losing my babies. Her blog is incredibly touching, and I read it daily. Matt asks me why I do that to myself. As far as I see it, this is her therapy. This poor woman is putting all of her thoughts, sorrows, and feelings down for people to see as a way to deal with this...I feel as a mom I at least owe it to her to read them. While it is heartbreaking to read, it is also touching, and is something that has stuck with me since I came across it...which is why I'm sharing it with all of you. You can choose to read it, or not. But I wanted to at least give you the option.
Kellie and James Staats' blog
It never ceases to amaze me how people can pull together in times of tragedy. Some of you may have noticed that I've posted a link to an online auction today. The auction was put together by a woman who owns an online boutique and came across the blog the same way I did. She was so touched, that she has been working incredibly hard since then to bring in donations to put up for this auction. She has hundreds of items up for bid. All of the proceeds will go to the Staats family to help offset the cost of the funeral and anything else they might need. A bunch of total strangers, who have never met the family, have come together to help. It brings tears to my eyes to think that not all hope in the world in lost. I ask you all...PLEASE check it out. If you can't make a purchase, at least spread the word. While nothing can bring their daughter back, having some of the financial burden lifted from their shoulders will be helpful. At the very least, please keep this family in your prayers!!!!
Tiny Wings auction for Maddie #1
Tiny Wings auction for Maddie #2
I feel like this entry might be a bit scattered...but thats ok. I am definitely scatter-brained at times! I think this is where I'll leave off tonight. Braxton is up from his nap anyway, and I need to start dinner. Its chicken, baked potato, and broccoli tonight. I am really enjoying eating healthier. Tomorrow is my first weigh in, so hopefully I will have good news to report!!! As always, thanks for reading!
Love to all,
Beck
Friday, February 25, 2011
A New Beginning...
I don't know if its the new year, or just coincidence, but I feel like I'm starting a new chapter in my life. Things just really seem to be going pretty well for us. We have our setbacks at times, but overall I think we're all pretty happy right now. We're getting settled here in North Carolina, and are beginning to really enjoy it!
I believe I left off around Halloween. Well, the holidays have come and gone, and while I'm a little late, I hope you all enjoyed them! My dad and my brother Jeff came down for Thanksgiving, and my mom and Ed were able to come down the following weekend. We had two people that Matt was going through FMTB with at the time over for Thanksgiving dinner, one of whom we became friends with while stationed in Pensacola. It was great to see her! It made me feel good that we were able to provide a nice meal to people who weren't able to go home and be with their families for the holiday, and is something I plan to make an annual event!
We were very blessed to be able to go home and spend almost 2 full weeks with our families over the Christmas and New Year's break. Matt graduated FMTB mid-December and had some time off afterwards, so we took advantage of it! We had a wonderful Christmas, and beings that it was Braxton's first made it even more special! He made out like a bandit, but naturally was more interested in the wrapping paper than what was underneath :) Both boys did quite well! Matt and the boys got me a Kobo e-Reader, which I LOVE! I didn't think I would like it, since I like an actual book, but I really do love it.
Now that the holidays have passed and Matt is finished with his training, things have gone back to normal (whatever that is!). Matt has settled into his new command and seems to enjoy it. They didn't place him in his ideal spot, but he is the type of guy that can and will make the best out of whatever situation he's put in...which just happens to be one of the things I admire about him the most! There is a strong possibility that he will be deploying in September, and while I am praying that will not be the case, I'm well aware that he WILL be going at some point. Its just something we have to deal with, and will. It will be probably be more difficult on us this time, for different reasons. I will, for the most part, become a "single parent" for 7 months, while he won't have the opportunity to see his kids everyday, every other day, or at all! Fortunately, we kick ass, so I know we'll get through it :)
Andrew, for the most part, is doing well in school. He's at that age where he's starting to focus more on his social life than his schooling. Aside from some minor setbacks, he's done well. He tried out for the school's soccer team, but unfortunately was not selected to be a part of the team. With the risk of sounding like a whiny mom who thinks her kid is the best at everything, I really do believe that decision was based on politics more than his ability. The kids who were picked for the team have been playing together since they were little, and it all seemed super clique-y. Andrew has been playing soccer since he could walk, and has played on a team since he was 3. He comes from a long line of soccer players, and while I know I'm biased, he is GOOD. Anyone that has seen him play can attest to that. Unfortunately, even if you're the best one out there, its awfully hard to shine when the team has been selected before tryouts began. On the upside, we found out the main base here offers recreational sports teams, and Andrew has decided he wants to be on their Jr. Golf team! I'm really excited for him, and I think having something to focus on will really do him well.
Braxton is doing wonderfully. He's 10 months old now (its so cliche, but really...where HAS the time gone???), and is up to 23 lbs and 31 in tall! He has 6 teeth, is crawling (albeit, a version all his own...), and is pulling himself up to a standing position. He had his first ear infection last week, but the antibiotics have cleared it right up and he's good as new! He's getting less and less formula and is getting more and more solid foods. It SO much more convenient to give him a bit of what I'm already making for dinner! Formula is a pain in the you know what, and I can't wait for him to not need it anymore! He has the most wonderful disposition, and while I've said this before, he really is such a joy. He's just such a happy little guy!
As for me...as some of you may know through FB, I have started a lifestyle change. No, not the kind that involves surgery and some serious explaining to do to my kids (haha, I laughed out loud on that one...), but one that will be changing things like eating habits, exercising, and other things to focus on a healthier, happier me! In the past, I've been so focused on weight and my physical appearance. So, I would go on a diet, usually one of these fad diets that promises rapid weight loss (while failing to mention the havoc they can wreak on your health). Sure, I lost weight. But eventually it all came back, and brought some friends. I'm not focusing on the number on the scale anymore. I'm focusing on what foods I'm eating, and am beginning to make much healthier decisions when it comes to what I'm eating and how I prepare food. I want to set a good example for Braxton. I want him to choose an apple over a bag of chips or cookies, without me having any say in it. I want that for all of us! I want us to want to go for a walk, or go play basketball over wanting to watch TV all the time. And while things like chips, cookies, and TV are ok at times, I don't want it to be the norm that its become. When I eat well, I feel GREAT. I only want the same for my family. They deserve to feel great too!
In addition to wanting to feel better about my appearance, I also want to feel better about myself as a person in general. Don't get me wrong, I'm happy. I have an amazing family, and truly am very blessed. But, like most of us, I do have some inner demons that need dealing with. I'm hoping being able to put all of my feelings down in writing will help with that. Don't we always feel better when you get things off your chest and out in the open? I am also going to be getting back into church. We all are. I always enjoyed it growing up, and I feel like it is something we as a family should do, and need. I pray all the time, and find myself talking to God often, which truly does make me feel better. My relationship with Him needs some work, and going to church, I feel, is definitely a step in the right direction!
Speaking of church, I am OFFICIALLY planning Braxton's Baptism. I actually just got off the phone with the Base Chaplain and will be meeting with him on March 8th. So, the option of March 19th might have to be pushed back a little, but I promise I will let everyone know ASAP!!!
I think that will be all for now. Braxton is waking up from his nap, and my belly is growling! Thanks for taking the time to read this. I already feel like you all "have my back", and I appreciate it more than you know!
Love you all!!!
Beck
I believe I left off around Halloween. Well, the holidays have come and gone, and while I'm a little late, I hope you all enjoyed them! My dad and my brother Jeff came down for Thanksgiving, and my mom and Ed were able to come down the following weekend. We had two people that Matt was going through FMTB with at the time over for Thanksgiving dinner, one of whom we became friends with while stationed in Pensacola. It was great to see her! It made me feel good that we were able to provide a nice meal to people who weren't able to go home and be with their families for the holiday, and is something I plan to make an annual event!
We were very blessed to be able to go home and spend almost 2 full weeks with our families over the Christmas and New Year's break. Matt graduated FMTB mid-December and had some time off afterwards, so we took advantage of it! We had a wonderful Christmas, and beings that it was Braxton's first made it even more special! He made out like a bandit, but naturally was more interested in the wrapping paper than what was underneath :) Both boys did quite well! Matt and the boys got me a Kobo e-Reader, which I LOVE! I didn't think I would like it, since I like an actual book, but I really do love it.
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| Buddy boy with Santa! |
Now that the holidays have passed and Matt is finished with his training, things have gone back to normal (whatever that is!). Matt has settled into his new command and seems to enjoy it. They didn't place him in his ideal spot, but he is the type of guy that can and will make the best out of whatever situation he's put in...which just happens to be one of the things I admire about him the most! There is a strong possibility that he will be deploying in September, and while I am praying that will not be the case, I'm well aware that he WILL be going at some point. Its just something we have to deal with, and will. It will be probably be more difficult on us this time, for different reasons. I will, for the most part, become a "single parent" for 7 months, while he won't have the opportunity to see his kids everyday, every other day, or at all! Fortunately, we kick ass, so I know we'll get through it :)
Andrew, for the most part, is doing well in school. He's at that age where he's starting to focus more on his social life than his schooling. Aside from some minor setbacks, he's done well. He tried out for the school's soccer team, but unfortunately was not selected to be a part of the team. With the risk of sounding like a whiny mom who thinks her kid is the best at everything, I really do believe that decision was based on politics more than his ability. The kids who were picked for the team have been playing together since they were little, and it all seemed super clique-y. Andrew has been playing soccer since he could walk, and has played on a team since he was 3. He comes from a long line of soccer players, and while I know I'm biased, he is GOOD. Anyone that has seen him play can attest to that. Unfortunately, even if you're the best one out there, its awfully hard to shine when the team has been selected before tryouts began. On the upside, we found out the main base here offers recreational sports teams, and Andrew has decided he wants to be on their Jr. Golf team! I'm really excited for him, and I think having something to focus on will really do him well.
Braxton is doing wonderfully. He's 10 months old now (its so cliche, but really...where HAS the time gone???), and is up to 23 lbs and 31 in tall! He has 6 teeth, is crawling (albeit, a version all his own...), and is pulling himself up to a standing position. He had his first ear infection last week, but the antibiotics have cleared it right up and he's good as new! He's getting less and less formula and is getting more and more solid foods. It SO much more convenient to give him a bit of what I'm already making for dinner! Formula is a pain in the you know what, and I can't wait for him to not need it anymore! He has the most wonderful disposition, and while I've said this before, he really is such a joy. He's just such a happy little guy!
As for me...as some of you may know through FB, I have started a lifestyle change. No, not the kind that involves surgery and some serious explaining to do to my kids (haha, I laughed out loud on that one...), but one that will be changing things like eating habits, exercising, and other things to focus on a healthier, happier me! In the past, I've been so focused on weight and my physical appearance. So, I would go on a diet, usually one of these fad diets that promises rapid weight loss (while failing to mention the havoc they can wreak on your health). Sure, I lost weight. But eventually it all came back, and brought some friends. I'm not focusing on the number on the scale anymore. I'm focusing on what foods I'm eating, and am beginning to make much healthier decisions when it comes to what I'm eating and how I prepare food. I want to set a good example for Braxton. I want him to choose an apple over a bag of chips or cookies, without me having any say in it. I want that for all of us! I want us to want to go for a walk, or go play basketball over wanting to watch TV all the time. And while things like chips, cookies, and TV are ok at times, I don't want it to be the norm that its become. When I eat well, I feel GREAT. I only want the same for my family. They deserve to feel great too!
In addition to wanting to feel better about my appearance, I also want to feel better about myself as a person in general. Don't get me wrong, I'm happy. I have an amazing family, and truly am very blessed. But, like most of us, I do have some inner demons that need dealing with. I'm hoping being able to put all of my feelings down in writing will help with that. Don't we always feel better when you get things off your chest and out in the open? I am also going to be getting back into church. We all are. I always enjoyed it growing up, and I feel like it is something we as a family should do, and need. I pray all the time, and find myself talking to God often, which truly does make me feel better. My relationship with Him needs some work, and going to church, I feel, is definitely a step in the right direction!
Speaking of church, I am OFFICIALLY planning Braxton's Baptism. I actually just got off the phone with the Base Chaplain and will be meeting with him on March 8th. So, the option of March 19th might have to be pushed back a little, but I promise I will let everyone know ASAP!!!
I think that will be all for now. Braxton is waking up from his nap, and my belly is growling! Thanks for taking the time to read this. I already feel like you all "have my back", and I appreciate it more than you know!
Love you all!!!
Beck
It lives!!!
Its been quite some time since I've really even given this blog a thought. I really enjoyed sharing what is going on in our lives, so I figured I would start it back up! Instead of labeling it into one specific category (which previously, has been giving updates on our family), it will be about...well, anything. And everything! I'm treating this as almost a type of therapy for me. It feels good to be able to get my thoughts out, and being able to do so to my family, friends, and anyone that comes across it is something that I'm really looking forward to!
I hope you all enjoy this as much as I plan to!
Love to all,
Beck
I hope you all enjoy this as much as I plan to!
Love to all,
Beck
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